The Great Depression (In My Saddness)

Hi.
Depressed speaking.
I feel so left out sometimes. I mean, we all feel left out sometimes, but this left-outedness was so overwhelming (in my part) that I was very upset and frustrated. It all started two nights ago, with basements, and Kung-Fu.
*flash back begins*

I was a very happy person, two days ago, and my day was going perfectly. I found out I got 100% on my math test, and it was an A-Day, so I had English with all my friends. As you can see, I was cheerful.
When I got home from school, my hair wind-swept and my cheeks pink, I got a phone call. It was from one of my best friends, Melia. (She has a blog! Go to www.cheersoccer.blogspot.com!)
"Hello?" I said into the phone.
"Hey Liz!" It was Melia.
"Hi Mel! What's up?" I asked.
"Oh, well Ashley (my friend) and I are going to watch Kung-Fu Panda in my basement. Do you want to come over and watch it with us?" Melia said.
"Sure!" I said excitedly, "Let me ask my mom."
I put the phone down.
"Hey mom! Melia is wondering if I can go over to her house and hang out. Can I go?" I called.
"First you need to finish your homework!" my mom reminded me.
"Okay," I said, and told Melia.
"Lizzy, come down as soon as you finish your homework, okay?"
"Okay!" I said, and hung up.
I get distracted easily. If you know me well, you would know. When it was almost 5:30, and I was finishing up my last problem, Melia called.
"Lizzy, what is taking you so long? We are gonna start the movie with out you if you don't hurry!" Melia said.
"I was finishing up my last problem when you so rudely interrupted me!" I said jokingly.
"Okay, bye!" she said quickly, and hung up.
I finished my problem and piled into the car.
"Com on mom! Melia is waiting!" I shouted out the car door.
"I'm coming, I'm coming," said my mom.
We finally pulled out of the driveway and drove down to Melia's house.
"By mom. Thanks for letting me go," I said, getting out of the car.
"No problem. Bye honey!"
"Bye mom!" I said, and knocked on Melia's door.
She answered the door, and we ran downstairs and watched the movie. Then we had to stop the movie in the middle, and go to Lone Peak High School and give Tanner (her older brother) dinner because he was at a play rehearsal. We came back home and finished the movie right when my mom came to pick me and Ashley up.
"Hey Melia," I said while walking out her front door, "Do you think you can hang out tomorrow?"
"I'm not sure," she said, looking at her mom who was standing behind her.
"Do you think I could come home with you tomorrow?" I asked.
"I don't know," she said.
"Then maybe you could come home with me!" I said.
I looked over my shoulder and yelled. "Hey mom, can Melia come home with me tomorrow?"
"I don't know!" she yelled back.
"Lizzy, I'll call you in the morning. I really need to go pee!" she said.
"Oh!" I laughed, "Okay, bye!"
She closed the door and left, and we dropped Ashley off at her house, and drove home. The next day, I waited before school by the phone, waiting for Melia to call me.
What is taking her so long? I thought.
"Lizzy, you need to go!" my mom said, and pushed me out the sliding glass door with goodbye's, I love you's and see you after school's.

When I got to school, I ran into Melia.
"Melia, why didn't you call me?" I asked her.
"Oh, sorry Lizzy!" she said, "Our bus was late, and we had to wait outside for it to come. And I slept in!"
"Oh, okay," I said, and let the subject drop.
We went to PE, and Melia's cheer friend, Jessica, called her in the PE locker room.
"Hey Melia, since we don't have Flyerz today, do you think that we can hang out after school?" she asked.
"Sorry Jessica, but I am already playing with Lizzy after school," Melia told her.
"Oh, okay! Maybe another time," Jessica said.

When PE was done and we were changing in the locker room, Jessica had a great idea.
"Hey, how about we go to Jump On It over the weekend, together!" she said.
"Yeah!" Melia and I agreed.
"Okay!" Jessica said, and I left the locker room feeling very happy.

After school, I was expecting Melia to call, since she didn't before school. I finished my jobs, and sat waiting by the phone. A half an hour passed, and no call came from Melia. Finally, when I couldn't take it any longer, I called her house.
Nobody answered.
I was a little worried.
I tried calling again, and her mom answered the phone on the last ring.
"Hi, is Melia there?" I asked.
"No, she isn't. May I take a message?" her mom asked.
Things started going downhill from there.
"Um, well, this is Lizzy. Do you know where she is?" I asked, spirits sinking. She had promised to play with me after school!
"Oh yes! She is at Jump On It," her mom said.
I had a feeling she was with another friend, even though she promised.
My nose started to stuff up.
"Oh..." I said in a small voice, "could you tell her that I called?"
"Yes, she will be back at 6:00. I'll tell her to call you," her mom replied.
"Okay...bye..." I said, and quickly hung up. Tears were welling up in my eyes. It hadn't been the last time someone broke a promise to me.
I ran upstairs.
"Mom!" I shouted.
"What?" she said.
"Melia is at Jump On It, and I wasn't invited, and she promised that she would play with me, and that she would call me, but she didn't, and she's not getting back by six!" I cried.
"Oh..." my mom took me in her arms, and I sobbed into her shoulder.
"You have plenty of other friends, like Sadie and Ashley B.," she reminded me.
"Yeah," I said, wiping my nose and eyes on my sleeve. I took in a big, shaky breath.
"Okay..." I sighed.
I just watched TV, waiting until six to come. Six came and went, and no call from Melia ever came. It was past six thirty when I broke down again. I was thinking that maybe she was avoiding me, or that she didn't want to hang out with me, and just said that, or maybe she just forgot all about her promise to me, and decided to go to Jump On It with another friend, and didn't hear that I called her house, wanting to know where she was, and why she didn't call me in the first place. I started to cry again, and ran to my room and sobbed into my pillow. My mom heard me and came in again. She rubbed my back for a while, and then gave me a hug.
"It's okay, Lizzy," she said, trying to comfort me.
"Sometimes-" I paused. Then I said this quickly, relieved to get it out of my system.
"Sometimes I feel like Melia doesn't want to play with me, and sometimes whenever I go over to her house, tons of other people call, and she invites them over too when I just want to play with her alone, and then I just feel left out because everybody else is swarming around her because they are friends with her too, and-" I paused to take a breath. "I am just so scared to tell her that I want to be with her alone, and just play with her, and sometimes, she just forgets that she had plans with me, and goes off and plays with another friend! I just want to crawl under a rock!" I sobbed.
"Lizzy, I've told you that you have other friends too. Why don't you play with Chase?" Right when my mom said that, a knock came on the door.
"I'll get it," I sniffed.
I walked down stairs, and lo and behold, it was Chase.
I sniffed happily.
"Hi Lizzy. Um, are you okay?" she asked sympathetically.
"Yeah," I said, wiping my nose on my sleeve.
"Oh, I was just wondering if you wanted to play..." she trailed off.
"Yes! I would love to play! I need a friend!" I said, my spirits rising.

Well, at least Chase came to my rescue. That whole time while I was at Chase's house, I always expected my mom to call and say that Melia called, but, she never did. I still feel a little put down, but that was yesterday, and I just want to talk to Melia about it. Let her know how I feel when she does things like that. And ask her to remember to not do that again. But I don't know how to do it. I need help. Email me if you have any suggestions, or I'll allow comments. Most likely, the comments thing.
Okay well, C ya l8ter!
Ciao for now,
Lizzy