FAIL

I missed a day.

How could I?!

I was on a roll, I posted every day for...9 days. Yep, that's right, it totally was a habit.
Better work on that.

To be honest, I think I've done a good job. I've never done this well before. (I almost said, "I've never done this good before. Yechh! Bad grammar)

Oh, wait, Family Night.

Ze light painting wis ze sparklers.

Sorry if I've already uploaded this picture. You'll get over it eventually.

Electric

This lightning is freaky.

I would love to get a picture of it.

My sister learned how to ride a bike without training wheels today. Cute picture

This picture is my favorite. No editing used at all.

Close

I've seriously been cutting these blog posts close. Really close.

I've been trying to get a picture of a sunset recently for my photography class, but I can't get a good one. What will I do when it comes?
Ugh.

Again, this post will have to be short because I really don't know what else to talk about.

Our family is totally obsessed with screen time right now. Just barely, while babysitting, my brother was on the computer for an hour and my sister watched TV for three hours. Their brains are going to melt by the time they are 12 and 9.
Ugh.

Well, since I'm done with this mini post, I might as well put in the picture.

Picture.

At least here's one successful picture of sunset. I wish this would happen again.

Dance

I am going to be sore in the morning.

Today I've started a new dance class, and I think it is pretty fun. Yep. I also have no idea what to blog about. I started dance.

School is pretty cool. It started about four days ago. This will be one of the easiest years ever (which will probably mean that I'll slack off so much that it will be hardest thing ever) I'm most excited for my photography class and my drawing class. Yay, art! I already have lots of homework, but I've been able to stay caught up.

This post is getting nowhere. I might as well end the post here.

I'm sorry that if you know me--I will be irritable tomorrow.

Yep.

Hey, at least I posted, right?

Anger

Don't you hate when you are a pushover?

I'm sorry, I don't have a lot of time--again--but I needed to post.

I am too much of a pushover. I'm too afraid of hurting people's feelings. I don't want them to be offended, and sometimes I put people forward too much that I let myself fall behind and uncared for. Then I feel so angry and distraught, and I keep it all bottled up inside. I need to just face it. I can't let them do this to me all the time. But I let them. All the time. And I hate it.
I can't seem to get the courage to stand up for myself.

This thing happened between someone I love and cherish very much. They have problems in their life, and I feel like I have the "perfect family" and everything goes well, while this person has to suffer because of it. They tell me everything, and I don't know what to do. And because they keep it all inside and they can't stand up to their family, they take all of the anger and pain out on me. It's awful, because I try to help them, but nothing I do works. I was crushed today because of them, and I cried. I admit this on the internet. I did. But, sometimes crying is good. It makes you feel better. The emotion is leaking out with all of your tears.

Yes, this experience happened to me today. It was awful. I had to just sit alone in my room and just cry and talk it out to my mother (I tell her everything) until it was all lifted off my shoulders. I really hope you don't have to go through something like this. The same thing that I went through. It feels great when you are finished and you feel like there is this huge weight lifted off your shoulders because you talked it off (much like 'walking it off'), but before you feel crushed. Like Atlas, the man who had the weight of the world on his shoulders.

Return II

Back to school. Yay!...maybe. I guess it really depends on how this year turns out. Sophomore year was a, to put it nicely, nightmare. Well, maybe I'm exaggerating a little, but still, it was awful. Getting into the high school routine and having homework a lot more than in Jr. High (Middle School for you everywhere-else-but-Utah folks) was killer. Especially Physics.

Yeah, I know, I've ranted about this before, but I'm dead serious here. That...tthiinngg was a living he...ck. Ha. I did a happy dance when I left that classroom for the last time. I vowed to never step foot in there again. (Which means that next week I will probably walk into that classroom again. Great.)

Anyway, I guess today was, well, A LOT BETTER. My first four classes are going to be the easiest things in the world.

Have you noticed that I do an overdose on parenthesis? I just noticed that (obviously) See?! There I go again.

I think I've had too much Dr. Pepper today. I haven't had any!

Random.

Why am I crazy? I can't even think straight. I'm high...on life!

Maybe because my self esteem was raised a bajillion points today because people kept complimenting me on my shirt, my backpack, my face...etc. etc. etc.

"I'm good enough...I'm smart enough...and gosh darn it, people like me..."

CLICK THE LINK TO THE VIDEO Go to the minute 2:21.

Yep...too much Dr. Pepper.

Speaking of Dr. Pepper, you know those games when the teacher is all,

Teacher: Alright class! Let's go through the role, and when I call out your name, think of something interesting about yourself to share with everyone!

You (thinking): What? No! I'm not interesting! What will I say?! So much pressure...some kid in my other class got bitten by an alligator! (this is true) I can't top that! What will I do?! I'm so boring! I should leave class right now! AH! Um...I'll just say I have...brown...hair...riiight...

I DESERVE TO--

Teacher: Lizzy, you're next!

You: Uh...I like Dr....Pepper...

Teacher: Me, too!

You: Awkward...

They should really think of some different games, because I played that game three times in a row, and I felt like I had to say different things just in case anyone else in any of my other classes was there, and then they'd be really bored and then I'd feel bad and then they won't be my friend and I'll be lonely.

Run on sentence!

Maybe I should just stop talking. I don't even understand what I'm saying...

Ugh.

Forget

Ack!  I almost forgot to post today.  It is getting late, and I really need to get on my 'back-to-school' sleeping schedule, so this post is short and sweet.
I am super excited for school tomorrow!  I hope that everything will go well.  The one thing that I am truly grateful for is that I am officially over and done with Physics.  Ha!  Physics!  You can go throw yourself in the paper shredder for all I care!

With that happy note, I leave you.

Here is a picture of my little sister running down a hill.  Enjoy.

Update

Update on the photography blog!  Check it out.  Link here or in the sidebar.  I believe it is listed on the Favorite Blogs and Websites.

Whatever You Do, Don't Think

Today is my father's birthday.  Happy Birthday, Dad!

Anyway, I haven't had any form of an eventful day.  I feel like I should answer some questions about myself.  I've felt like I'm some empty shell that keeps spewing out nonsense every couple days.  I need a body.  A form.  What do I look like?  I'm hollow.

That actually sounded poetic.  I assure you that I am not a hollow person.  I have organs and muscles and proper body parts.  I'm talking about the soul............... (annoying amount of ellipses)

[Cue rant]

Can I mention how much I hate it when people put too many ellipses?  Like...they...talk like...this...  or they use ellipses in the place of periods.  Such as, "I am so happy...my dog is too...he's sick...I hope he gets better..."

Or, instead of using three ellipses (they should be) they use five, or six, or twenty.  

Example: I'm talking about the soul... (correct!)

I'm talking about the soul...... (AGH! NO!  Take off three of those!  My eyes!)

Or even: I'm talking about the soul...................................... (okay, what is that supposed to be?  Ants?  Bullet holes? You might as well just start over)

[End rant]

Let's answer some questions! This way you can really get to know me.  And it will actually be a full post...that will make sense.

Heather, I am now stealing something from your blog again.  You give me good ideas.  The question thing you did, I am now taking it. Ha!

(PS. If you would like to see Heather's awesome blog, you should click here.  Go on, click it.  Yes, here is the link.  I gave you two tries.  You better take it.)

My middle name is: Marie
I was born in: June
I am really: Happy
My cellphone company is: T Mobile
My eye color is: Brown
My shoe size is: 9 (I have big feet)
My height is: 5'9"
I am allergic to: Nothing!  Ha!
My 1st car will be: Something old...and automatic
My 1st job was: Babysitting
Last book you read: The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde (summer reading)
My bed is: Messy
My pet: Is nonexistent
My best friend(s): Alison, and Californians
My favorite shampoo is: Burt's Bees Grapefruit and Sugar Beet.  You hair smells good and is so soft
IM name: Lizzy
Piggy banks are: currently not owned by me.  I wish I had one.
In my pockets: Lint
On my calendar: Dr. Suess's Oh the Places You'll Go
Marriage is: going to happen
Spongebob: is annoying
My mom: is the best cook in the world
The last three CDs I got were: a mix CD, Summer Hits 2007 (I believe), and another mix CD
Last YouTube video watched: Synesthesia
How many cousins do you have? 8, but that's not counting step cousins
Do you have any siblings? Yes, three
Are your parents divorced? Nein
Are you taller than your mom? Same height
Do you play an instrument? Yes
What did you do yesterday? I went to a wedding reception.  At least I saw some of my step cousins.

Love at first sight: I think love needs to grow
Luck: Sometimes
Fate: Yes and no
Yourself: Sometimes
Aliens: Not the green ones with the bug eyes.  But I do think life is out there.
Heaven: Yes
Hell: Yes
God: Yes
Horoscopes: They're stupid
Soul mates: I think that there are multiple people "made" for you
Ghosts: More like angels, or souls
Gay Marriage: No opinion
War: I don't want to
Orbs: No
Magic: I wish

Hugs or Kisses: Hugs, I've never had a kiss
Drink or High: No drinking for me
Phone or Online: Both
Red heads or Black haired: Both
Blonde or Brunettes: Both
Hot or Cold: Cold
Summer or winter: Summer
Autumn or Spring: Autumn
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
Night or Day: Day
Oranges or Apples: Apples
Curly or Straight hair: Straight
McDonalds or Burger King: Carl's Jr.
White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Milk Chocolate
Mac or PC: PC
Flip flops or high heals: Flip flops
Ugly and rich OR Sexy and poor: Sexy and poor
Coke or Pepsi: What's the difference?
Hillary or Obama: I don't care for politics
Buried or cremated: Buried
Singing or Dancing: At the same time
Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: McPhee
Small town or Big city: Small town
Wal-Mart or Target: Target
Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Ben Stiller
Manicure or Pedicure: Pedicure (I pick off the manicure)
East Coast or West Coast: West
Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas
Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers
Disney or Six Flags: Disney
Yankees or Red Sox: Red Sox

War: Isn't a good thing
George Bush: isn't engraved in my memory
Gay Marriage: No one should have the right to make loving someone else illegal
The presidential election: isn't involved with me
Abortion: Isn't cool
MySpace: What's that? :)
Reality TV: EurghParents: I love
Back stabbers: Why?
Ebay: is what my dad likes
Sex: After marriage
Work: Eventually
My Neighbors: I don't know them very well (sad)
Gas Prices: Don't have a car
Designer Clothes: are stupid
College: Eventually
Sports: Soccer
My family: Crazy
The future: Is coming

Hugged someone: Last night
Last time you ate: Half hour ago
Saw someone I haven't seen in awhile: Yesterday
Cried in front of someone: 2 days ago
Went to a movie theater: Um...a week ago.  Cars 2
Took a vacation: Define vacation
Swam in a pool: Last month
Changed a diaper: 4 years ago
Got my nails done: not professionally
Went to a wedding: no idea
Broke a bone: Never
Got a piercing: Never
Broke the law: No idea
Texted: Yesterday

Who makes you laugh the most: Taylor, Heather, Makaela, Alison
Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my family
The last movie I saw: Music and Lyrics
The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: The school year
The thing I'm not looking forward to: Homework
People call me: Elizabeth, Liz, Lizzy, Lizard, Lizbizfiz, Yizbizza, 2.5, Fizbizza, anything spun off from Lizzy
The most difficult thing to do is: Tell someone you like them/confess
I have gotten a speeding ticket: Not once
My zodiac sign is: Gemini
The first person I talked to today was: My mom
First time you had a crush: Kindergarten
The one person who I can't hide things from: Alison, my mom
Last time someone said something you were thinking: Uh...
Right now I am talking to: My mom
What are you going to do when you grow up: Photography
I have/will get a job: Hopefully soon
Tomorrow: I'm finishing an essay
Today: Has been uneventful
Next Summer: might be better
Next Weekend: Trek reunion
I have these pets: An imaginary bear named Basco
The worst sound in the world: Rubbing a balloon
The person that makes me cry the most is: Myself
People that make you happy: All of my friends and  my family
Last time I cried: 2 days ago
My friends are:...weird
My computer is: Lovely... though sometimes I want to hit it
My School: is average
My Car: ...is nonexistent
I lose all respect for people who: Cheat or lie or hurt people
The movie I cried at was: Harry Potter 7.2
Your hair color is: Goldish brown
TV shows you watch: Avatar the Last Airbender
Your dream vacation: Greece and England
The worst pain I was ever in was: extreme growing pains
How do you like your steak cooked: Little bit burnt pieces, and mildly pink in the middle
My room is: Messy, but not dirty
My favorite celebrity is: I don't know...I don't know many celebrities name
Where would you like to be: At a park with a blanket, a book, camera, and a Dr. Pepper.  In California.  With my friends
Do you want children: After I'm married
Ever been in love: Define "in love"
More guy friends or girl friends: Girl
One thing that makes you feel great is: Finding a new favorite song, book, or person or making someone happy
One person that you wish you could see right now: Only one?  All my friends in California
Do you have a 5 year plan: Finish high school and get myself into college and start photography major
Have you made a list of things to do before you die: No
Have you pre-named your children: Nope.  I'll know it when I see them
Last person I got mad at: My friend
I would like to move to: California...maybe
I wish I was a professional: Photographer

Okay, I'm starting to lose interest now, so I will finish this tomorrow.

These are the lights in my computer room

Trying

I'm trying!  I promise.  Look, two posts in a row.  Are you happy?  I am.  This is actually getting somewhere.  I am seriously serious about (maybe) this 365 day thing.  I KNOW!  I will add a picture for every day!  Yes!  I will also put sticky notes everywhere to remind me to post pictures.  I have to do this!  It will be awesome!  YES!  YES YES Y---

Can I really do this?
Yes.  Positive thoughts...
Let's start now.

                                                                This is the time right now.

Now...lets see if I can pull this through.
I can.
yes.
YES>!!1!>!!>

Return

Woah!  What is this?!  A blog post?  Since when?  What are those?  Huh?  Where am I?

The reason why I am returning is because I felt guilty.  I was at a birthday party last night, and my friend randomly turns to me and says, "Post on your blog!  I'm getting bored reading the same things over and over."  I had no idea that people actually read it...I mean, I know I have nine followers, but I thought it was out of pity than anything else.  Then I was flattered, because someone actually checks if I've posted.  Then I felt bad that I had them keep reading a silly quote that my little sister said two months ago.  I even made this my New Year's resolution!  I could get paid blogging!  I could even get paid for posting videos on Youtube!  Ahh!  And then it got me thinking that the view counter I have posted slyly  on the side bar is at 1000, but I thought those views were from me checking to see if any of the changes worked that I applied on my blog.  Although the majority is, some of those views are genuine!  Like, people check to see if I've done anything.  Someone who I've never met before actually commented on one of my posts!  I felt pretty happy.  Then I felt determined to keep posting more on my blog.  Like, a 365 day challenge. (the same thing I'm doing with my retainer to see if it'll actually turn into a habit...we'll see)  Then I got crestfallen because I'm not that dedicated.  Then I made a goal to become dedicated!  Then I thought that I still wouldn't be dedicated.  It might help for the first two blog posts, but then seep into nonbeing ("which is to say, everything."  I just quoted something.  Brownie points to the person who knows what I just quoted.  And what book number.  And the person who said it.  And why) where the spare keys and bits of fluff are stored.  Then for some reason that got me thinking of the Red Pyramid, by Rick Riordan. (a good book, by the way).
Argh, I need to get my head screwed on straight I thought to myself. Why am I thinking about pyramids that are red?!
Then I started to think back on track and then I noticed that sometimes I don't have good ideas for what I'm going to blog.  Sometimes the only things that come to mind is (and this is seriously what I think about when I'm bored): Cat. Watermelon. Garden hose.  Oh yeah, I need to water today.  Is it raining?  Ah!  Lightning!  Get underneath a doorframe! Wait...that's for earthquakes.  What are you supposed to do when it's lightning...-ing?  Texas has lots of storms.  Alison!  My friend is from Texas.  I wonder what she's doing...I should take some pictures of the lightning...Harry Potter!  He has a scar on his forehead...Lightning! HOLY CRAP WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!



And that is what I thought entirely in about ten seconds when someone asked me why I didn't blog anymore.  I snapped out of it when someone yelled, "CUPCAKES"
Then I thought about eating them.  I'm hungry...wow...What would I do if I was starving in the middle of the desert...CACTUS JUICE! "it's a giant mushroom...MAYBE IT'S FRIENDLY!"

Hey!  A decent sized blog post.  Maybe I should do this more often...